I blame society for telling me to use drugs. I went along with it to fit in. I don’t care about fitting in anymore, but I don’t think it was my fault for partaking given the social atmosphere. So why do I have to suffer these dreams that torment me about it? Do I have unresolved trauma related to it or some shit?
PS. I am straight edge now, I haven’t used drugs in a long time and don’t think about them while I’m awake at all. I prefer to be sober minded. The only part they play in my life is in occasional dreams apparently, which are usually negative and unpleasant.
Dont spend too much time on dreams, I find listening to something helps with less dreamful sleep. Its the quiet and pure silence that is the worst by creating a blank canvas for your sleeping brain to run amok
Do you feel like you still crave it even tho you’re straight-edged now?
No, I don’t crave it, it’s an unpleasant experience for me personally. So I feel like dreaming about it is less about “I miss this feeling” and more like if you had some traumatic thing happen and then kept reliving it in your dreams. Thats what it seems like anyway.