My cat died last week and it sucks balls and I haven’t slept in over a week. It will take a long time to get over it, he died suddenly and I spent an entire day in the ER trying to save his life but it didn’t work. He was only 9 years old. He was an amazing cat who went on hikes, bike rides, and walked with me and my dog almost everyday. He also traveled with me and went to parties and loved meeting new people. I don’t know if I will ever be lucky enough to have such an amazing cat again.

I am trying to date again since November and it also sucks balls. People I go out with are super mean. I had to cancel a date this weekend and the woman basically told me to go fuck myself for being depressed about losing my cat. I hate how awful, sexist, and angry most women I meet are. Of my last 4 dates, one person was nice, and the other 3 were incredibly rude and just whined at me for an hour about how poor they are (they were all rich people).

Otherwise my life is great. I am doing great at work and finally seeing a lot of my suggestions get implemented and I got an extra week of vacation in lieu of a raise. My hobbies are going well and my fitness is getting way better after some bad injuries/accidents last year that tanked it. My diet has improved too thanks to the training and my dog and I have been doing adv training classes and she really loves having a job. She is also struggling with the loss of our cat be this week she is wagging her tail again and being happier.

I had a small relapse and drank excessively for three days. Yesterday I had to drive six hours round-trip and work six, with a brutal hangover. No booze today, I’m gonna beat it again.

The horrors persist.

But SO DO I!

Honestly off to a bad start. I have to get up in 3.5hrs and I am not at all tired

My life is falling apart. I can’t find full time work that will cover my mortgage. I am in a panic every minute of every day.

I went to the store with an objective, resist my urge for chocolate.

I did not realize we are after valentine day, it was packed with heart shaped chocolate at -50% next to huge chocolate bunnies cause it is somewhat already Easter?

Oh well, maybe I’ll resist better next time 🤷🏻‍♂️

Calling in sick to work today. Massive diarrhea. No joke. I woke up at 6 with the smelliest gas I’ve ever had followed by the longest bout on the toilet.

My friend was over with his kid on Sunday. She threw up and they left. He said they all got sick. I think this is whatever that was.

Maybe I’ll lose a bit of weight. BRAT diet here I come

I can’t complain. Overall I’m pretty happy.

Hopefully everything is going well for you too.

So far. Meh. I broke down a couple days ago but have recovered over the weekend. Today I feel alright, tired all to hell and have to work but meh. Good news is I’m expecting to get paid from my freelancing job this week. Enough to buy myself the laptop I want so I’ve got that going, which is nice.

Second degree burned due to pooring boiling water over my fingers. And i am, stuborn as i am, climbing out of a situation with my now fiance , caused by my all so lovely family that defenetly does not try to sabotage my life at every opportunity :)

I got a new couch yesterday and I’m super excited (yes, I am that old that a new couch excites me)! how are you?

As seen elsewhere: “new liver, same eagles” 👍

7/10. Nice weather but stuck at work. Making slow but steady progress towards my life goals.

Meh.